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track on my new account

hey, i actually already have a hunger games character cx
his name is darius and he's seven months and he just joined the elite <3

deleted and moved because i switched to a new account <3

this layout belongs to feesh! she let me use it, thanks so much <333

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[font=georgia]full name. stephano simul stamus mortem nocte-maestus
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[font=georgia][b]species. felis catus (domestic cat)
weight. 3.6 kg (7.9 lb)
length. head+body - 522 mm (21 in.) tail - 269 mm (11 in.)
gender. male
sexuality. homosexual "kiracifer"
body. [a slim skeleton and blue golden tabby markings] the pelt of this tom could be described in many ways; wisps of smoke clinging to the sunlight, silver raking its cold, startling fingers through blond. this male is a marbled blue golden tabby. his fur is swirled with grey and cream, giving him a dusty, disheveled appearance, and his paws are socked with a paler grey, along with a pair of stockings matching in colour. his skeletal build is compact and stephano's ears are a little big, but other than that, the tom is pretty well proportioned. he is much like a little lion, with thick fur and a gold-stained face. moving down from his head, though, is where the sun catches silver. his body is mainly silvery-blue as well, with places where russet-gold tarnishes the shimmers. his nose is small and rosy-pink, and match his paw-pads perfectly without a hint of difference. his bones are fragile and could easily break if he takes a fall from a high place and lands wrong.
eyes. stephano's eyes are the colour of champagne in a thin glass
powers. i don't think i want him to have any powers, however that may change
personality. [promiscuous. sassy. independent. trauma drama. social butterfly. esfp.] promiscuous. "i'll make you dirty boys blush!" good thing he's gay, or else stephano would have lots of kittens running around bearing his genes. whether just romantic or even farther, stephano is known to have many partners, even as quickly as one day one tom, next day another. he is very comfortable with things such as one-night stands and he often hangs out with one tom for a few weeks before moving on to another. it's hard to tie him down, he gets bored so easily. he looks at his romantic interests as someone to put on a high pedestal, and he often does before he dumps them. the tom tries to remain on good terms, however. when he's with a certain cat romantically, stephano has no shame and tends to hang all over them and act very clingy, especially around other cats. he has a bit of a jealous streak. sassy. "i'll scare 'em off with my snappy comebacks." stephano is what you would call a sass-master. he'll get up into anyone's face and shoot them down faster than an enemy plane any time he feels. he isn't afraid to say things that would hurt feelings and he can burn bridges without looking back fairly easily. he is the sarcastic one out of the group and though he may not be the best at it, it can be laughable. wip
clan. loner (later goes to the elite, if that's alright)
rank. loner
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[font=georgia][b]notes. ["i'll make you dirty boys blush" "promiscuous boy" "hopeless flirt" "ludo" "swirls of grey and cream, giving him a dusty, disheveled appearance" "lucira" "quiet by nature" "a bit of a daredevil" "plot: true love"]
possible plots.
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[font=georgia][b]theme songs. all the stars in texas by ludo

graphics.

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[font=georgia]username. bbygurl
muse. fairly high, i'd say about six to seven out of ten
activity. four to five out of ten [only because i'm grounded. when i'm not, it'll be seven to eight because i just finished soccer for the season]
why i deserve this kit. i don't really think i deserve it... i've already got a few hprs, and there are others who have done much better to deserve a kit than me. but i think that i would like this kit because i'm actually kind of in love with him now, he's a lot of fun to portray, and i think i could go somewhere with him. i am very museful on males, however, and would probably stay museful with him for a while.
why i don't deserve this kit. i'm really not one who feels comfortable adopting out or doing temps. don't get me wrong, if i know i won't be here and i have an hp [which i've never had before] i will temp it, but to temp out a museless character isn't really something i like doing. neither is co-owning, again, unless i have to. i used to be what people call "uber-advanced" in writing humans / humanoids, and before that i could do that for some animals, but i haven't role-played, i mean really role-played, in a while, so i'm currently getting help from a friend to get my posts back to a level so that i'm not embarrassed by my posts.
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On my past account, I had "on the site for over a year" "50 rping posts in their first week and "role-player in advanced boards" even though i know not all of them are really handed out much anymore, i was wondering if i could get them since i had them before i moved to a squeaky-clean account. c:

old account

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]whispers opia's birthday be on december tenth woo

Oh God.

Not a party.

Seriously? All he ever did was eat all the food and sing Ludo shit while sitting in the host's bathtub with the door locked.

And if this party ended up like that one time...

Oh well.

The ginger dressed casually. After all, this was one of his mothers and she should expect nothing less from a soccer-playing redneck redhead. Casual for him was jeans, some t-shirt, messy hair and a sweatshirt. Now, some people would expect him to dress differently, maybe a bow in his hair, or chains and tattoos, or something. Well, they were wrong. oh look opia has managed to vent his anger at pansexuality and how everyone gay has to be flamboyant or hyper-masculine in our society and now he'll shut up naoooo

What should he get her? He clicked his tongue and glanced around his lil house. Oh gosh. Would she like a stick of butter? Nah, but salted stick butter would probably work... But after a glance out his window while he was brushing his fan-PERFECTLY HUMAN TEETH, he saw the perfect gift.

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A knock on the door of a certain Roxy's house.

"Miss me?"

[okay i felt like making it really stupid because I have no muse for role-playing and I'm trying to boost it i'm sorry /sob][/justify]

[justify][color=antiquewhite]it depends on where you're at. in the main game? yes. you can say everything, except perhaps the C word, y'know, the really bad one, and the N word. you shouldn't need those anyway. but yeah, anything other than that is allowed. in fan clans, however, you follow the fan clan's rules.

hope i helped! c:[/justify]

[justify][color=antiquewhite]all i can really say is that you'd probably get a faster response by pming a staffer.[/justify]

[justify][color=antiquewhite]/quietly states interest[/justify]

[justify][color=antiquewhite]i would love to be part of that and do that, if the staff let us. <3 support[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]track on my new account. sorry it took a while [/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]somewhere between five and eighteen, blehhh.[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]no one will ever understand my thoughts. this is going to sound weird. some of my best friends are all in my head. they're my OCs and my favourite book characters. i'm a bullied kid. things had been going alright for a while; issues with an ex just being a jerk, but exes will be jerks until things aren't awkward anymore. and then this happened.

so my school has this thing where you can bring your money or put it into your account online. well, i thought i'd told my mom i needed money, but apparently i hadn't, so first period i went to call her. the phone was by the teacher's desk, and it was a teacher i got along with well, so i jokingly said, "look, i'm the teacher now." while i was dialing the number, i heard one of the girls at the table say "god, i'd hate to be in HIS damn class" and i think i heard the other one say she'd kill herself, but i'm not certain on that. i tried to brush it off and i ignored it, and when i went back to my seat, i mentioned something to my friends at the table, but they brushed it off and so i did to.

second period comes and goes. i'm a media assistant, but we hung out and had a free period in guidance because our librarian wasn't there today. then came third. i'm in algebra with kids a higher grade than me [there's a few others in my grade, too, but we're a minority] and we were talking... solving inequalities with absolute value. it was the word problem, and my teacher [he and i don't get along as much] was explaining that if we drew a line under the equation, it had to be dotted, because if it wasn't then that would mean we could cut students in half [it was talking about numbers of students] and he said "the law would not allow us to do that". so of course, a bunch of kids go "darn", "you ruined my plans!" etc. and a few moments later, the same girl said loudly "i'd like to cut opia". it was not joking. then, my teacher just goes "yeah, i'd like to too sometimes" and the whole class started laughing. i would not have been so... angry, if this hadn't been the first time. he's let them make fun of me before for not understanding something. he lets them harass me for my grades. and it's not just this class, and it's not just emotional or verbal. i haven't been punched since last year that i can think of, but i'm seriously just waiting for it. i've already gotten death threats.

i am beginning to go to my "friends" less and less... every time there's a boy they like, they completely ignore whatever i say. i'll be telling them something really important, and they'll literally say [this has happened more than once recently] "yeah, okay, whatever, bUT HAVE YOU SEEN HIM OMFGJKASFDKLHKLOkzK" etc. and it's really pissing me off. they're never there for me and they try to keep me over by "who hurt you? i'll punch em in the face" and various forms. another thing. if one of their other friends is hanging out, they'll completely ignore me, talk to the other person and even if i'm in the middle of speaking, they'll cut me off. if i try to say something, they stick their finger in my face and say "hold on" and then wind up forgetting i'm even there.

unless they want or need something. say... help finding a book. help typing something quickly. help finding the answer [more like doing the entire problem for them half the time] and they'll nag me to death until i do it, and get pissy if i say no, or to hold on.

i can't please anybody. in third grade, i was that kid. you know, the one the teacher gave a huge table to him or herself because they were quiet and literally THE definition of an atomic bomb when screwed with? that was me. i remember once, i slapped the "scariest boy in 3rd grade" right in the face and told him to leave me alone. i had his respect all throughout grade school. anyway, they pulled me aside and told me that i NEEDED to talk more or i'd be bullied throughout schooling for being the quiet kid. no one ever messed with me. i can tell you right now, i know for a fact that i'm bullied a helluva lot more because i talk so much. it's a mask. people never are pleased. if i talk, i''m talking to much, if i'm quiet, kids set out to make me talk because something must be wrong if opia isn't talking. you want to know what my own aunt said? "no offense, but i have no clue how your mother hasn't gone crazy from listening to you talk all the time" yet if i'm silent or at least quieter, they pry for information. when i talk, everyone tells me to shut up. when i'm quieter, people pry and force me to speak.

so yes. my real friends, the ones i know i can turn to when i'm fighting with my family [happens a lot] or i have no one at school, are fiction. they're in my head. but they help me more than most people in real life have so far. i tried to talk to my school guidance counselor once because she "thought i had a bad self-image" [which i know i have by the way, you kinda know these things] but she didn't help. it was just weird. so i turn to books and film. i can relate to them in ways i can't seem to relate to anyone else.

"no one loves you" "you're going to die alone" "go slit your wrists" "go kill yourself" "i hate you" "nobody that you love loves you back" and tons more.

i can explain it best in a pie chart. 25% 25% 50%

25% of kids seem to think i'm an idiot. "you're so stupid" "TALKS LOUDLY BECAUSE HE'S OBVIOUSLY TOO HANDICAPPED TO HEAR WHEN WE'RE SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO HIM AS WE TALK SHIT ABOUT HIM" "just drop out of algebra so my friend can get in. everyone knows you're going to drop out halfway through the year anyway"
25% of kids seem to think i'm smart but slow. "hey you're smart you do this for me" [in group projects] "wELL you're the only one here who cares about your grades, so if you want to get a good grade, you do the work" "you're smart, why're you getting D's?"
50% of kids have no clue what to do with me, so resort to claims on how weird i am. =/ or they make fun of how much i talk. that's a classic.

i know what i am, though.

i am the isolation of jack.
i am the noted difference of ender.
i am the dorkiness of dinozzo.
i am the judged-by-my-mask of bean.
i am the awkwardness of castiel.
i am the tease of darius.
i am the pieces of all my best friends who live in my mind. [a bunch weren't mentioned, but i love them all the same.]

when i need strength to not cry because i just got told to kill myself or that i'll die alone [i'm very sensitive on the latter, the idea of dying alone terrifies me], all i have to do is turn to who i'm relating most to, imagine them just comforting me, either by talking to me or something like that. when i need help with something, all i have to do is think of them, of who i'm relating to most. right now, everything works its way back to bean. <3 he's my relatable right now. this probably sounds really stupid and that i need mental help, but whatever. it helps me cope, so bug off if you're just going to judge. no one [except maybe some of you c:] will ever understand why i love looking at pictures of my favourite characters in my freetime, or why i get so emotionally attached to people i know will never exist, or why i could cry just thinking of, say, bean, or ender, or alai, or shen. they won't understand, but i will.[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]i effing hate repeating things. rereading the same page over and over because people keep interrupting me will make me lose my mind. repeating myself the second or third time makes me so angry. by the third, usually i've said "never mind". i hate when people say stuff over and over, and if teachers repeat themselves over and over it pisses me off so much.[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]hiya! i'm really not good at camp codes.. cx i fail. anyway, i was wondering if i could put in a theme request?

i'd like anything either themed on space or [more preferable] ender's game. i love music by ludo, as well. <3 thank you so much![/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]wasn't there a test board? i lost the test board link /scowl

i cannot find it, could someone please help me..? i don't think it was the fancypost board, the title was just "test board"[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]i don't think so, but it looks like it'll work. thank you <3[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]opia perked up immediately when this person known as oddi mentioned food. "I HEARD FOOD!" he screeched, following roxy into the kitchen instead of sitting, therefore missing the entire bear incident. he tried to ignore the cray party sounds coming from the living room. "she must be livin' like larry," he mumbled quietly, tugging at his sleeves.[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]because aliens don't wear hats? owo

WAIT
I READ ABOUT THIS

when two ender's game fans meet
they must fight for dominance
*crabwalks up the wall*[/justify]

#opiaaa
[justify][color=antiquewhite]track[/justify]